Well almost finished my second novel and decide to do some research in seeing what I need to learn to get it published... logically there is no point. Yes I didn't expect to be a huge hit but thought I could at least make some living by writing novel after novel but even then it seems I am back applying to crap retail jobs which I just have my self esteem drop every working day. Seriously, there isn't much I am even halfway good at in life and once finding what I can do means so little to society that you can't even make a living from it unless you are one of the very very very lucky few. I am just not inspired to finish my second book anymore. Guess I need to find something else to do since writing is nothing more than just a hobby.